Tick. Tock.

The feeling is mutual. You want to know, but at the same time you don't because you don't want the outcome to be bad. I have mixed emotions with these two. I will admit, though, I'm not as anxious as many other people are because I know that I am at least a finalist! :) However, I don't know if I am an alternate or one of the scholarship recipients; I don't know about you, but I'd much rather play it safe and have the scholarship position.

Everyday my nerves ARE getting the best of me and they are growing bigger and bigger. I keep having the gut-wrenching feeling that they are not going to accept me, but then I also have the butterflies-in-your-stomach feeling because they might actually like me (my dad thought they did). At the same time, I definitely think I could have answered some questions better. For example, they asked me how I make friends (since the whole idea of the exchange is to make friends and get to know people). I decided to tell them that i was shy and once I get to know people I become good friends with them. Let's just say that was an extremely TERRIBLE answer. They might think that it takes me forever to make friends; I wish I thought of it sooner to tell them that even though I'm shy, I start to open up really quickly and find something interesting that I have in common with someone and just roll with it. But because of my idiotic move, I might have just squished my chances. I hope they saw in me how determined I was to want to go and get this position. (And I really do love to make friends! I try to find at least one thing in common with everyone so that I can at least try to get to know them, I just might be kind of quiet at first.)

Anyways, about 16 more days- at the latest- that I find out. And let me just say, the suspense is killing me!

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